Now What?

I need to vent...

I've been on leave from work since mid-January. Since then co-workers have been keeping in touch from time to time. Hubby and I have discussed it, at great length, and agreed that it is necessary for me to return to work after the baby is born.

Last month, via text message, I was alerted that our company let 10% of our staff go to cut costs. I was safe.

The other week I was updating my personal address book. I called my office, expecting to speak to the receptionist (who was a temp), and found out that she was let go. I was surprised to hear my co-worker answer the phone (as she's usually out in the field visiting clients) and she informed me that to continue to cut costs some of our field offices would be closing at the end of this month. I wasn't surprised to hear that our office was going to close - especially since we have two other offices in SoCal. We've done this in the past and employees simply worked from home. Not a shocker - most of us do this anyway and go into the office once, maybe twice a week. No one from our office was let go, so again, I was safe.

The other day I texted a co-worker to follow up on an expense check that I hadn't received yet. Then, and only then, was I informed that our company had been bought out (literally the day before) and a merger was taking place. What!? Could no one have called me, texted me or emailed me, to let me know of this news??? Granted, yes, I know I'm on leave, and yes, I know that maybe (just maybe) no one wanted to stress me out considering I'm pregnant - but still - THIS IS HUGE!

I went online to find articles about the merge, and sure enough, there were plenty. One quote that really stuck out to me was, "It is unclear whether the remaining employees at [name of my company here] will remain as part of the larger merged business." Wow.

If I weren't on leave, if I weren't pregnant, I could probably take this news a little better. Since I'm out of the loop - it's taking me some time to digest this. I've always, ALWAYS, ALWAYS survived RIFs at every company that I've been with. Not sure about this time...

I'm sure we'll figure it out. I'm sure we'll find a way to be fine. But still... with my hormones and a baby on the way... I'm not thinking as clearly as I did pre-pregnancy. So.... now what???