On Monday I will become something I never was before... a working mother. I don't know whether or not I'm ready for the challenge, but alas, I must be. There are so many things running through my mind and I truly hope I make it through my first day okay.
Between bedrest, giving birth, then getting laid off, I haven't been actively in the workforce in over a year. I must remind myself that I am indeed a smart woman, that I know my stuff, and I am an incredible asset to the organization that I will be joining. On a great note - I've lost weight and I am finally at my pre-pregnancy weight - whoo hooo!!!!!!
Of course, I can't help but feel guilty that I'll be leaving my son. We found wonderful and reliable women to watch him in our home for a few months. (When he turns one, we plan on taking him to a daycare facility.) Last week the babysitter came to our home every morning, and I left the house each day for several hours so that our little man could get used to not seeing me all the time. He seemed to do okay. He's a smart guy, he can tell something is up and seems to know that change is coming. It probably doesn't help that the hubby will be leaving soon, for a month, for his Naval Reserve Duty, but that's another challenge I don't want to think about yet...
Anyhoo, ready or not, the time has come, and I will make it work. I will probably cry, and cry, and cry when I leave my little guy on Monday. I will probably call to check on him several times throughout the day. And I will definitely rush home to cradle him in my arms at the end of the day. Millions of women do this, every day... if they can do it... so can I...
Thank You
14 years ago
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Of course you can do it! Your mama was one of the hardest working mamas we knew and you have grown up to be an awesome person and mother yourself.
I can only imagine how hard the transition will be, but RJ will grow up proudly saying how strong and intelligent his mama is!
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